"and it feels like home, and it feels always, and it feels like coming home"--shawn colvin

hey hey
i know all of y'all thought i had left and gone for good, but no worries. just been in texas for the past week...

so i spent this past weekend half in austin and san antonio..i got kind of sick on friday, (i know my immune system stayed up for the entire 3 months in new york, but once i got around my family, i finally hit rock bottom and acquired an incredibly sore throat within a 1 1/2 hour drive from dallas to waco) anyways, i had dinner with my dad and then went to have coffee (cider) with bundy which was great. i was so glad to see a friendly face :) came home, tried to stay up to watch colin farrell on conan but i couldn't because i'd just drank about a gallon of nyquil...needless to say, i felt much better on saturday and my mom and i left to san antonio and i saw so many cousins and family members, it was way fun...not to mention we went to patty's and i had mexican food!!!!!!!!! i even ate some of erica's...lol..i had been deprived...so i saw a lot of family and got to play a lot with candy (my fav. niece ;)) anyways...sunday we came back to austin and i just chilled out, got my pictures developed, and half packed, hung some of my clothes up, put together graduation invitations and watched "love actually"

so i bought this book called "quarterlife crisis", about the time of transition b/w graduation and the next part of your life, and it's not really uplifting or anything or has any wonderful words of wisdom, but it's nice to know that people go through the same sort of ups/downs and depressions that i am going through right now...makes me feel more normal i guess...

anyways, i'm back in new york...it only took me like 2 1/2 hours to get to the lambs but WHATEVER, stupid super shuttle, that's the last time i TAKE YOU! actually, they're really good at picking you up for your flight, but not for going to the airport to wherever your destination is. then i went to blitch and le to mcdonalds for a "family" dinner..lol. i haven't eaten fast food since i've left here, so it was alright.

i'm glad i finished my paper this week b/c i'm really tired and i still am not 100% better..tomorrow i'm devoting to studying for my VERY LAST FINAL EVER! and then turning in my paper and going to the christmas tree lighting in rockefeller center.

anyways, my room is already half empty it's kind of weird.

i had really mixed feelings flying into la guardia tonight, the city is lit up liek a freakin' christmas tree from up in the sky...and it's amazing...then i got to baggage claim and everyone looks pissed off and then while drivin around the upper west and east sides, i rememebered why i didn't really like it here

anyways peace out...

ps. ellen had colin farrell on this morning while i was packing ...sorry andy...i was really excited to watch that. you know...line dancing is kinda cool

4 days until i'm back in texas for good
19 days until graduation...wow